1). Crush it, Break it apart

Migs Rustia
 

Can you count all the times
That you've mended my heart
Just so you could again
Crush it, Break it apart?

Yet, you've got no idea
That I'm hurt all the while
Cause I hide all my pain
With a laugh and a smile

All my rage and frustration
They are secrets to you
I'm a pretty good actor
Cause you don't have a clue

I have made it an art
It's greatest learned skill
Hiding all of this damn
Fuckin pain that I feel

Yet sometimes it leaks through
Sometimes I botch my act
Sometimes you see my pain
Sometimes I can't hold back

I regret if you noticed
I didn't wanna seem shallow
But sometimes it's too much
It's more than I can swallow 

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 3). Have You Ever...

Dennis Mayer

Have you ever cried at night,
Thinking it was bad,
Have you ever lost a love,
The only thing you ever had,
Have you ever screamed out loud,
From pain that you have felt,
Have you ever stopped and looked,
At pain that you have dealt,
Have you ever questioned someone,
Of love and if its true,
Have you ever really wondered,
If they truly feel for you,
Have you ever felt abused,
Or worried while you wait,
Have you ever made a big huge deal,
Over someone being late,
Have you ever had them leave,
And watched them walk away,
Have you ever thought of leaving,
But could only sit and stay,
Have you ever hurt someone,
And looked at what you’ve done,
Have you ever been the one that’s hurt,
And thought that you were the only one,
Have you ever loved another,
And never told them so,
Have you ever tried to tell them,
But didn’t know how it would go,
Have you ever been alone,
Where no one else could see,
So you sat at home remaining unknown,
having nowhere else to be.
I’ve felt this way before,
I’ve felt and dealt it all,
I’ve even lied,
I’ve even cried,
I’ve even felt the fall.
But nothing makes it better,
The Guilt or the Pain I feel,
I wish it all would go away,
I wish it wasn’t real,
But that is not the case,
And it could never be,
It took me too long to open up,
And took me way too long to see, I must;
Own up to mistakes I’ve made,
Get past the pains I’ve felt,
Wipe away the tears that are in my eyes,
And reflect on the tears I’ve dealt,
And Tell someone when I love them,
Before they go away,
And maybe if I word it right,
They just might want to stay.

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6). What now (Heartbreak Poem) ?

By Edoria

I looked forward to sleep.
Sometimes I dream, and you are there.
And then
I realize,
Here's the reality of my life I've come to hate.
Careless whispers heated the coldness of my smile.
Once upon a time,
Long sexy strokes of confidence coloured my skin,
Because then,
You were there.
I don't know if I'll ever forget
How you made everything to me
Seem complete.
You were the passion underneath the harshness of those tidal waves.
They used to sink me and drown me.
And then,
You gave your breath to me,
And then
I tasted the sweet flavor of life.
Now, I need to break the intricate web,
You have woven around me.
Safety cradles me like a soft lullaby.
But then,
That was the only song I wanted to hear.
And then, you threw it away.
Bittersweet sensations,
Lingered like an unwanted scar.
You hid me far away from the painful truth,
And then
You tossed your heart high into the nighttime sky.
Far enough,
I cried because I couldn't see it.
Now, I look forward to sleep.
I can dream,
When you were there.
But like love insatiable,
You remain where memories call like haunting winds 

Old Sad Story

I loved her,
I really did,
But it's an old sad story,
That I live.
How can I ask for more,
From this beautiful woman I adore?
I trapped her and kept her down,
How can I ask for her to be around?
Out of these eyes,
I could not see.
How can I live,
With this part of me?
She means so much,
Yet so little does it show,
But there's nothing left,
Except the words over the phone.
I am no more man,
Than I am a child,
As I watch these dreams,
Crumble to a pile.
Now she's gone.
She has left.
Now my heart,
Starves to death.
Misery comes strong,
With this lesson I've learned.
So many times in my life,
I have taken the wrong turn.
One day I hope,
This butterfly with come home,
As for now,
I am left all alone.
I miss her more,
Then what these rythmes could say,
For her heart,
I could not pay.
I loved her,
I really did,
But it's an old sad story,
That I live.

- Garry Brand

   2). How can you????

Christopher H.

Leave everything WE started so long ago?
Leave me here all by myself?
Leave the home WE Built?
Leave the memories WE made?
Everything here reminds me of you.....

The Pain.....

In my mind...
In my soul....
In my body...
But most of all it hurts in my heart....
I Love you so much..........

Love that will never be shown...
Scars that can never be hidden....
Wounds that will never heal....
Clouds that will always fill with darkness...

I Wonder....

If i will ever love anyone as much as i love you.
If i will ever be able to hide the scars....
That you left....
If he wounds will ever heal.....
That You Left....
If the clouds will ever lighten....

I Think of our unborn children...
Ein Warren Hughes-November Sky Hughes-October Rain Hughes
That Will Never Be given life from both YOU and I
I think of the home WE dreamt of...
The Love WE Shared....
The life WE started....
Im so, so vary sorry....
That i wasn't strong enough for you..
That i wasn't everything you thought i would be.
That i had to work long hours so WE could Live..
That i left you alone all those long nights....
That i couldn't give you everything you wanted...

Make me doubt myself....
Make me cry....
Make me suffer....
Make me feel alone....
Make me hate myself....
DEMOLISH ME.....
YOU Succeeded....

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4). Painful Memories

Laurie Price

Feel the blowing leaves and reeds
Lying on our backs in that field
Felt like we were the only humans
Banished in the middle of no where

Staring at the thousands of stars
Feeling the crisp night prickle my spine
Feeling your heart beat so close to mine
And repeatedly saying the same three words

"I love you" is what you told me
Before we promised we would be together
Forever and ever, you have my heart
And I could feel your warm embrace

And now I'm here, all alone
Wondering what I've done so wrong
Watching my whole life before my eyes
And feeling the cruel world crash down on me

Can't you see what pain you've caused?
Can't you see I'm dying...
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5). The end of love, the start of pain

(Lucy Arnold )

The end of love, the start of pain
The blood from my heart that now aches, stains
With the thought of your image, the thought of you care
Devoted to another, whilst my spirit is bare
Where am I to go, where is my hope now
Am I no longer important like our dedicated vows
You promised to always be there, and love me no matter what
But it seems you’ve moved on, loved another and forgot
The breakdown of our relationship, the break of my poor heart
You punctured it with your cruel ways; you stabbed it with a dart
You took away my faith, my dreams, I now have nothing left
My happiness has disappeared; a brutal act of theft
You promised to always be there, but now it all depends
On if you’ve found another love and when my heartache ends

 7). Beautiful Irony

By Jennifer Holcomb

I begged you to love me
It couldn't be done
emotion, passion, intimacy-you showed me none
I'm through trying now, my efforts exhausted my drive
The beautiful irony is now you need me in your life
Now you love me, it hit you head on
You show your passion, your fatal flaw is gone
Why do I feel this restless disgust
I should be happy, but leave you I must
I'm not fully happy, I'm searching for more
Maybe I'm destined to be dissatisfied, eternally bored
What answers are there--I pray to the Lord
The sadness engulfs me, it tightens my chest
I hate myself for hurting you, for looking at the rest
You're a wonderful person, maybe it is you
Maybe you ARE the one, maybe I won't see it till your gone
I'm not sure of the outcome, but I know one thing
This game is definitely through
You didn't love me, now I can't love you.

I am tired of trying
tired of caring
we can't be together
but we cant seem to stay apart
when I finally have my heart set
on walking out that door
you walk in with that cocky smile
full of empty promises
and I cant help but stay

we cant have a civil conversation
between my temper and your pride
we're both too stubborn for our own good
that's why we don't leave
that's why we cant stay
so now you've finally decided
you've had enough
when I walk in with my shy smile
full of empty promises
and you cant help but stay
......... By Vicious Cycle

 Feelings Poem

There must be a wound!
No one can be this hurt
and not bleed.
How could she injure me so?
No marks
No bruise
Worse!
People say 'My, you're looking well'
…..God help me!
She's mummified me -
ALIVE!

(Spike Milligan)